Into the Waves

"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." "Come," Jesus said. Matthew 14 Into the waves! Sometimes I think I can hear the Lord call to me, "come into the waves." I often respond, "But Lord, I'm stuck in a desert; I don't see the water." Have you ever felt like you were stuck in the heart of a desert? I think all too often we all feel like we are wandering the desert in search of a better place, maybe that place is an answer, direction, or maybe its the words I love you. That reassurance that you are still in our father's hands, that you have not been forgotten. In this time of Covid 19, there may be a lot of us feeling this way, searching for answers, trying to hear the comforting words of our Father "it's okay, I got you." I want to write my thoughts down as I hear the command "come" the same command Peter was given, for I am wondering the desert in search of the waves, in search of the living water. Don't get me wrong I know the living water, I have experienced the full power of Him. I just need more of Him; I want to rest in the fullness of the living God always. I am using this time to do just that, to search Him, to abide fully in Him, to come into the waves. I wrote in an earlier blog how I felt God was taking a break, that he put up his be back after lunch sign. I would be lying if I told you that felt any different today. But I now think that instead of me waiting on God, God is waiting on me. As I wait for His help, He is waiting for me to ask for it. As I wait for his comforting words, He wants to sit with me in silence because sometime in the quiet, the answers are the loudest.

As I wander, what I feel like is a spiritual desert, God has never been closer to me. I know He's present, but I sometimes am reluctant to speak to Him. I am not sure why that is, maybe I am afraid of what God might say to me, perhaps I am scared of the road I know He's taking me down. Or maybe I know he will reveal a sin that I don't want to address. Either way, I am on a journey into the waves of God's embrace, and just like Peter, I have my fear, but I am determined to keep my eyes on the one true God as I walk through this desert.